finding the happy in the everyday little things
As today is a bed rest day, I find myself looking out of my bedroom window, watching the wild weather.
As the magnificent trees sway to the back and forth in the furious wind, it looks like they are performing the most incredible dance. I think it’s the Tango: vibrant, dramatic, full of passion, and playful.
So with this in mind, my happy for today is being mindful while watching the trees dancing in the wind.
My energy bucket is empty.
So today I am having complete bedrest.
I’m not panicking or worrying about this blip like I’ve often done in the past. Even though it’s a biggie this time.
I was expecting a blip of some sorts after putting so much energy into facing one of my biggest fears: writing this blog.
I’m not turning away from my condition either. Instead, I choose to turn towards it. I choose to listen to my body and honour what it needs.
I choose to accept this blip with love, patience and grace.
But it’s not easy.
And I don’t manage it every single moment.
But once I’m aware that my mind is spiralling downwards, I gently bring myself back to focusing on the now, on my breath.
I focus on the glory of the trees outside my bedroom window.
My spirits are lifted as I watch the wind rustling through these magnificent beauties, their branches swaying, bursting with life. Watching them is a soothing balm to my soul and helps bring me back to the present moment.
This blip, I gently remind myself, this too shall pass. I will feel better in time. I’m not putting pressure on myself with a timeframe. I will take as long as I need.
I have given myself permission not to write if I don’t feel well enough. I also don’t want to pretend on this blog that everything is always ok. I want to show myself that even on days like today, I can still find my happy. And I’m so grateful that I have.
So with this in mind, my happy for today is being mindful of what my body and mind need: complete rest.
