Being mindful of what my body and mind need:
My energy bucket is empty.
So today I am having complete bedrest.
I’m not panicking or worrying about this blip like I’ve often done in the past. Even though it’s a biggie this time.
I was expecting a blip of some sorts after putting so much energy into facing one of my biggest fears: writing this blog.
I’m not turning away from my condition either. Instead, I choose to turn towards it. I choose to listen to my body and honour what it needs.
I choose to accept this blip with love, patience and grace.
But it’s not easy.
And I don’t manage it every single moment.
But once I’m aware that my mind is spiralling downwards, I gently bring myself back to focusing on the now, on my breath.
I focus on the glory of the trees outside my bedroom window.
My spirits are lifted as I watch the wind rustling through these magnificent beauties, their branches swaying, bursting with life. Watching them is a soothing balm to my soul and helps bring me back to the present moment.
This blip, I gently remind myself, this too shall pass. I will feel better in time. I’m not putting pressure on myself with a timeframe. I will take as long as I need.
I have given myself permission not to write if I don’t feel well enough. I also don’t want to pretend on this blog that everything is always ok. I want to show myself that even on days like today, I can still find my happy. And I’m so grateful that I have.
So with this in mind, my happy for today is being mindful of what my body and mind need: complete rest.