Day 19: Time to rest

Being mindful of what my body and mind need:

My energy bucket is empty.

So today I am having complete bedrest.

I’m not panicking or worrying about this blip like I’ve often done in the past. Even though it’s a biggie this time.

I was expecting a blip of some sorts after putting so much energy into facing one of my biggest fears: writing this blog.

I’m not turning away from my condition either. Instead, I choose to turn towards it. I choose to listen to my body and honour what it needs.

I choose to accept this blip with love, patience and grace.

But it’s not easy.

And I don’t manage it every single moment.

But once I’m aware that my mind is spiralling downwards, I gently bring myself back to focusing on the now, on my breath.

I focus on the glory of the trees outside my bedroom window.

My spirits are lifted as I watch the wind rustling through these magnificent beauties, their branches swaying, bursting with life. Watching them is a soothing balm to my soul and helps bring me back to the present moment.

This blip, I gently remind myself, this too shall pass. I will feel better in time. I’m not putting pressure on myself with a timeframe. I will take as long as I need.

I have given myself permission not to write if I don’t feel well enough. I also don’t want to pretend on this blog that everything is always ok. I want to show myself that even on days like today, I can still find my happy. And I’m so grateful that I have.

So with this in mind, my happy for today is being mindful of what my body and mind need: complete rest.

6 thoughts on “Day 19: Time to rest”

  1. Exactly what Emily said, she covered it perfectly!!

    Thank you for posting this! It actually made me on the verge of tears. I don’t quite know how to word what it is that I want to express..
    I guess what I am feeling is a combination of a little sadness that you are experiencing a blip, gratitude for your honesty (which in ways brings a sense of relief in knowing that I am not the only one that spends a lot of time in my bedroom), and comfort in being assured by you that it’s okay to take time out for healing, to find moments of happiness along the way. I just want you to know that I am here for you, to listen, to offer support and to help in any way that I can; but mostly I just want you to know that you are loved so very much.

    1. Wow what a beautiful comment, I’m on the verge of tears too (((((big hugs))))) to both of us 🙂 Thank you lovely Marnie for your kind words. I appreciate you and your support so much. It goes both ways beautiful one. Much love Xxx

  2. Thank you for sharing the ups and downs of your journey Helen, I so appreciate your honesty. What a gift to still be able to find your happy when your energy bucket is empty and you don’t feel well… that’s grace! Travel gently beautiful woman xxx

  3. Beautifully composed and gut-wrenchingly heart-felt You are a shining light of strength, bravery and determination ✨ This too shall pass and until it does, know that you are loved, respected and appreciated no matter what

    1. Thank you so much for your kind words my lovely, they’ve brought a tear to my eye. This was a very hard post to write and I toyed with not posting it at all. I think I’m glad I did! Love+hugs to you Xxx

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