Hello again!

Being grateful to be back!

Hello lovely. It’s been a long time since I last wrote a blog post. Well, it’s been almost three months, but it feels a lot longer.

After my one year blog-aversary post, I was feeling pretty overwhelmed and thought I’d take a break for a week or two. But then I had a big CFS relapse, which turned out to be the biggest crash I’ve had in a long time.

On top of feeling utterly wiped out and physically like I was back at square one, I was feeling disheartened, frustrated and deeply worried that I wasn’t making any progress in my recovery.

So I took the time I needed to rest, recuperate and recharge. And I took the time to sit with my more unhelpful feelings and gently work through them, trusting that when the time was right I would feel brighter and more positive again.

And I’m getting there. Slowly but surely. Turtle Power Style 🐢

Even though I’ve still been writing in my daily gratitude journal, I’ve recently found myself thinking how I’d like to write a blog post about something that’s made me happy that day. But I couldn’t because I hadn’t written that first post back yet.

I’ve been apprehensive about writing this first post because I felt it had to be something special, really special.

So I put it off for a day, and then another, and then another. And here we are.

Isn’t it crazy the amount of pressure we can put on ourselves sometimes?

But today, about half an hour ago, I suddenly realised that my first post in 3 months doesn’t have to be anything special at all. It can be just like all the others: just a little blog post about a little something that’s made me happy today.

And actually, I think that’s pretty special enough.

So here I am, just me, continuing to write about the everyday little things that make me happy. And today I’m happy that I’ve realised this!

Phew, what a relief.

And hooray! I’ve just taken that oh so difficult first step, which is always the hardest isn’t it. And it feels good. It feels really good 😊

☆♡☆

18 thoughts on “Hello again!”

  1. Dear Helen,
    thank you for this uplifting message – happiness begins with the first step.
    Be proud of yourself, you did it! 🙂
    I found a bit of myself in your words. I also have chronic health issues and fight tiredness every day. Often I feel that I don’t make any progress. But in the end, if you look at the whole picture, you realise that you made tiny, tiny steps towards where you want to be. Your impatience grows and grows, and it frustrates you that you cannot change your condition right now. You know that you have to continue and not give up. You know there’s a long way ahead, but you know it’s worth it. Thank you :).

    1. Thank you lovely Caro, your kind words mean a lot to me ♡ I’m sorry to hear you are suffering too and am glad we can both recognise and take comfort in the fact that we are taking baby steps back to full health, slowly but surely Hugs to you ♡

  2. So true Helen about putting pressure on ourselves! Good to hear you are recovering well from your recent crash, do you know what lead to it? It is frustrating but also when you recover it shows you also what is possible and how far you’ve come!

  3. Hello Helen,

    Well done for taking that first step, it is a lot like taking a leap of faith. I mean, when we don’t ‘feel’ like doing something but then we go ahead and do it anyway and the feeling then catches up with us and follows on from the deed, if you know what I mean. And yes, you’re right, it doesn’t have to be something special, for it’s just the way you look at things – even the smallest act can have the profoundest effect and we can be happy for each breath if nothing else! 
    And now that you’ve written, you can add the fact that you’ve cheered me up with your simple message to today’s ‘Happy’.
    Happy day!

    Patrick

    1. Thank you so much Patrick – I completey agree and love the expession: feel the fear and do it anyway 🙂 Your comment has made me smile, so thank YOU ☆

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